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1 | Care-partner and carer are used interchangeably in this paper |
Variable | n (%) |
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Agea (Mean = 63.0, SD = 9.8) | |
Genderb | |
Female | 47 (70.1) |
Male | 20 (29.9) |
Diagnostic subtype* | |
PCA1 | 26 (36.6) |
FTD2 | 22 (31.0) |
PPA3 | 9 (12.7) |
YOAD4 | 7 (9.9) |
Mixed dementia | 4 (5.6) |
Other dementia5 | 3 (4.2) |
Status | |
PLwRD6 | 27 (38.0) |
Care-partner | 39 (54.9) |
Bereaved carer | 5 (7.0) |
Relationship to PLwRD | |
Spouse | 33 (75.0) |
Child | 8 (18.2) |
Other relative | 3 (6.8) |
Ethnicity c | |
Caucasian | 63 (92.6) |
Asian | 4 (5.9) |
Métisd | 1 (1.5) |
Professionals | Students | |
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Sex | ||
Male | 13 | 7 |
Female | 41 | 28 |
Non-Binary | 0 | 2 |
Prefer not to say | 1 | 1 |
Age | ||
18-29 | 4 | 31 |
30-39 | 15 | 6 |
40-49 | 15 | 0 |
50-59 | 11 | 0 |
60+ | 10 | 0 |
Location | ||
Canada | 1 | 38 |
United Kingdom | 50 | 0 |
United States | 3 | 0 |
Other | 1 | 0 |
Occupation | ||
Researcher | 5 | 0 |
Psychologist (Clinical) | 18 | 0 |
Nurse | 7 | 0 |
Psychotherapist/Counsellor | 2 | 0 |
Occupational Therapist | 4 | 0 |
Social Worker | 2 | 0 |
Neuropsychologist | 3 | 0 |
Paid Caregiver | 1 | 0 |
Other | 8 | 0 |
Honours Bachelor of Social Work Student | 0 | 18 |
Bachelor of Science Nursing Student | 0 | 20 |
Dementia Care Experience | ||
Yes | 44 | 18 |
No | 11 | 20 |
Types of Dementia Experience | ||
FTD | 22 | 13 |
YOAD | 33 | 12 |
LBD | 31 | 15 |
PCA | 15 | 0 |
fAD | 24 | 13 |
fFTD | 14 | 6 |
Other | 12 | 4 |
Read or Wrote Poetry in last 5 years | ||
Yes | 14 | 13 |
No | 41 | 25 |
Prompts | Themes/subthemes | Associated Poems1 |
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Prompt 1: What is your experience of having (type of dementia) or being a family member caring for someone with this type of dementia? |
Temporality Disrupted Uncharted Territory Being in the Moment Rediscovering Identities and Relationships |
(1) A Steep Learning Curve (2) Still Me (3) No One Would Believe Me (4) Changing (5) Eleven (6) Accept This Honour (7) When Will I No Longer Be Me? (8) Out Here in The Rain (9) How May I Help You? |
Prompt 2: How would you describe (type of dementia) to a friend or family member? |
A Rollercoaster Heart-Breaking Losses Shifting Selves and Changing Worlds Misdiagnosed and Misunderstood |
(10) Bewilderingly So (11) Where to Begin (12) Unwavering Braveness (13) There is So Much I Could Say (14) Description (15) I Know You Have Noticed (16) Tumbling, Jumbling (17) Why I Repeat the Same Question at Random (18) Who Our Loved Ones Used To Be |
Prompt 3: What does support mean to you? |
Multidimensional Support Not in This alone Compassion and Understanding Support as an Action |
(19) Truth: A Fib (20) SUPPORT (21) What Else Could I Try To Do (22) A Journey (23) Relief (24) Help Me (25) To Continue (26) The Resiliency (27) Please Stick Around |
1 Supplemental File 1 contains all poems. |
Themes/Prompt | Sub-themes | Illustrative quotes |
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Temporality Disrupted/What is your experience of having (type of dementia) or being a family member caring for someone with this type of dementia? |
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“A journey into the unknown, caring in love, the constant challenge of adapting” (6.5.PCA.C-1); “Doors closing, fading slowly. Becoming invisible and written off” (9.12.FTD.PLwRD-1); “uncharted territory, cascading loss, fear and uncertainty about what’s coming next” (13.5.PCA.C-1); “The sister I loved so dearly was being taken from me, piece by piece” (10.2.YOAD.BC-1); “Our dreams are shattered and we will never be the same again, I never thought a disease could be so horrible and have such a dramatic impact on a family” (13.11.FTD.C-1); “Losses of myself, my essence, my work, my driver’s licence, my job, my body, friends, love of husband” (13.12.FTD.PLwRD-1); “I’m stuck here with a rare disea eeeze and the physicians don’t have a clue” (12.5.LBD.C-1); “professionals [who] seem at a loss and are slow to respond” (13.9.PCA.PLwRD-1) “Time slows down and remembering to truly be in the moment” (5.1.PCA.BC-1) “Trying to be positive and know these moments with him won’t come again” (10.4.MD.C-1) “Take every opportunity to have a laugh” (6.17.PCA.PLwRD-1) “At first it was a hectic pace, as time passed I felt more at peace that I am doing the best I can do” (8.3.FTD.C-1). “Then curiosity and call to action took over. I have been learning about myself and a brighter side of this world ever since. I am energised and happy” (11.10.PPA.PLwRD-1); “I needed to accept what was what and become a better person. I needed to fight, be more patient and find answers. (8.3.FTD.C) |
A Rollercoaster/How would you describe (type of dementia) to a friend or family member? |
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“heart breaking” (10.3.YOAD.C-2; 12.7.FTD.BC-2; 9.10.FTD.C-2); “frightening” (9.16. FTD.C-2; 6.23.PCA.PLwRD-2); “The Destroyer of Lives” (9.11.FTD.C-2); “the cruellest dementia you have never heard of” (9.3.FTD.C-2); a “rollercoaster” (12.7.FTD.BC-2; 5.8.PCA.BC-2); “constant emotional and physical ups-and-downs” (8.3.PPA.C-1) “She is still the same person, but is not able to do the things she used to do because of the disease” (13.10.PCA.C-2); “Not able to make any decisions big or small on most basic tasks. Choking often, falling, loss of balance. Loss of not being able to accomplish what used to be second nature” (13.12.FTD. PLwRD-2); “Brain blindness. Extreme turmoil. Unwavering braveness. An excruciatingly slow drip of profound loss” (7.7.PCA-C-2). “A disease that…erodes everything you thought about that person and your relationship with them. A disease that eats away the soul of the person and everything they are or who they had wanted to be.” (9.10.FTD.C-2). Profound changes in how the self relates to the world created a sense invisibility, “Increasing opacity between me and the world” (11.5.PPA.PLwRD-2), “You just don’t see me anymore” (12.4.YOAD, PLwRD-2); “retreating into own world” (9.4.FTD.C-2). “Things aren't where they appear to be. Which way round does this go? Where is the top or the bottom?” (6.5.PCA.C-2) “A neurological disease that does not follow the perceived norms of dementia of memory loss and only for the older person but far more aggressive and devastating as it affects behaviours and personalities of younger people in ways that make them disinhibited, lacking empathy and insight” (9.10.FTD.C-2); “a misdiagnosed and misunderstood condition” (6.22. PCA.C-2); “they never say drop him off to my house and get your hair done … they just say LOOK AFTER YOURSELF” (9.20.FTD.C-1) |
Multidimensional Support/What does support mean to you? |
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“Support means not feeling utterly alone. It means having someone to help bear the unbearable” (P7.7.PCA.C-3); “Meeting others who are in the same place as you and who understand” (P9.10. FTD.C-3); “a togetherness beyond family” (P5.1.PCA.BC-3); “Support helps me when I get confused and frustrated…it helps me live my life independently” (P6.1.PCA.PLwRD-3); “Being part of a PPA network, not feeling alone…giving me a degree of comfort” (P11.1.PPA.PLwRD-3); “Subject matter experts who listen objectively and share their expertise” (P8.3.FTD.C-3); “Professional help to educate doctors and the general public” (P13.12.FTD.PLwRD-3); “Provide support strategies that are specific to my condition” (P13.9.PCA.PLwRD-3) “Others understand or have travelled this road as well” (P13.2.YOAD.C-3). “Support means you are aboard my train and will help in any way you can” (P8.4.FTD.C-3); “Taking time to listen and giving time for talking (P13.PCA.PLwRD-3); “In between there is support that helps me see things differently and support that just takes time to listen and see things the way I do” (P10.3YOAD.C-3); “Old fashioned underwear” (P6.8.PCA.C-3); “From someone to hug me to someone who can take over when it’s too much. Someone who listens….and believes me” (P10.1.FTD.C-3); “Learn to accept me as I am, with all my faults and errors” (P12.4.YOAD.PLwRD-3); “Not judged by expression of my thoughts or feelings” (P10.2.YOAD.C-3); “Support me by showing acceptance” (P12.6.VD.PLwRD-3); Help to affirm decisions” (P5.2.PCA.C-3). “Always include stimulation. Always include companionship” (P12.3.FTD.PLwRD-3); “Support means enablement/kicking ass/being there when down” (P6.14.PCA.PLwRD-3); “It lifts me up in times of doubt. It allows me to move forward in a positive way with my life.” (P11.12.FTD.PLwRD-3); “Unconditional actions to ease the burden of care” (P12.7.FTD.BC-3); “If I am able to connect/talk with others that have PPA and I am able to help/support them—that is very helpful for me” (P7.4.PPA.PLwRD-3); “Support is helping me to feel better about myself as I contribute to help others.” (P7.4.PCA.C-3) |
Stakeholder group | Themes | Sub-themes | Illustrative quotes |
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PLwRD |
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“I am much more comfortable with the written word than I am with verbal conversation and that carries over to writing poetry”; (12.4.YOAD.PLwRD-1), “I found it very easy to just sit quietly and let my thoughts form my words” (12.6.YOVaD/.PLwRD-2), “I found finding the words was relatively easy as it was around the basic support that I feel I need on an ongoing basis (11.12.FTD.PLwRD-3)”; “Challenging but nonetheless enjoyable” (11.1.PPA.PLwRD-2); “I found the first word was difficult and challenging, but found after the first word was down, the rest just seemed to come easily, and it was then enjoyable” (6.1.PCA.PLwRD-2); “Having never written poetry before I found it challenging but a positive thing to do” (6.7.PCA.PLwRD-3). “I had a very hard time understanding the question and accessing the words. I felt very detached” (13.3.YOAD.PLwRD-2); “Sensed that I was having problems, Frustrated, when can’t remember” (8.1.PPA.PLwRD-2); “Challenging and to start and scary to go in your feelings cause I try to suppress how I really feel cause I’m afraid to go negative and think of all that hurts so very much but it ends up feeling so good to get it off your chest and ends up being cathartic. So much that I would like to go deeper and write more and get out my sad feelings instead of pushing them so deep and these 2 exercises have made me realize how good it is to see it on paper and hear it read by someone. It’s such a good idea.” (13.12.FTD.PLwRD-2). See section 3.2.1 in the text |
Care-Partners |
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“Challenging to distil my thoughts in just a few words” (6.5.PCA.C-1) “I struggled a bit to decide on what words really captured my experience” ( ), “First was the battle of just getting to the task but to actually sit down and consolidate the thoughts into sentences was met with great reluctance” (13.10.PCA.C-2). “It was easy and enjoyable for me. The words popped into my head quite readily. It was interesting to me to realize how much can be said with just a few words (13.8.FTD.C.1); “The experience was enjoyable because I think of many words that mean ‘support’. It was cathartic to put those words on paper, and I felt less isolated and more supported knowing that other people were doing the same thing” (13.8.FTD.C.3). “It was not a challenging task because I immediately knew what I wanted to say and I found it exciting to add to the gut-level offering I knew it would become…My staccato words express the small bites at life which is our daily experience; one thing at a time is the only way to survive this.....for us.” (9.11.FTD.C-1); “…forced me to truly think about what I would most want a friend or family member to know about the diagnosis from my perspective as care partner to my wife. I believe I captured that well” (8.4.FTD.C-2). “In the end I decided to share some of the common themes I would tell others during the experience. It was touching to remember those days and to reflect on how I feel now versus how much harder it was when she was alive” (10.3.YOAD.BC-1); “It was helpful in causing me to actually sit down and reflect on what we wanted (needed?) people to know and how to interact” (13.10.PCA.C-2). |
Stakeholder group | Themes | Sub-themes | Illustrative quotes |
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PLwRD |
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“I love the completed poem, it has a meaning to me as I can relate to the words written down, and it's interesting to see how a poem can be thought of by a list off words or sentences by different people” (6.1.PCA.PLwRD-1); I liked the way our various views and feelings were interwoven with other people’s responses to give an active description of the challenges of life living alongside dementia” (11.12.FTD.PLwRD-1); “I appreciated being able to describe some of my feelings about being ill and the sadness about no treatment/cure” (7.4.PPA.PLwRD-1); “It touches a chord for me. I absolutely like it and feel less alone in this…now I rarely write but when I read something good I’m amazed at the craft and how people put the beautiful words together and convey images or feelings succinctly. I can’t get it out right and it hurts that I’ve lost it but this makes me want to try again. Thank you! Great idea” (13.12.FTD.PLwRD-2). “The poem helps to capture the different ways people are thinking about what support should be for them. The words or the ways of saying may be different, but the emotions and concerns behind those words are very similar. Clearly articulates the emotional and personal aspects of what are perceived as needs - caring, communicating, staying connected, kindness - seem to override the many physical supports required although they are just as important for the overall well-being of the person and their care giver)s)” (13.9.PCA.PLwRD-3); “I liked the idea that the words were formed into a virtual buttress to allow us to fight back and defend us from the trials and tribulations that our condition now causes us in our lives.” (11.12.FTD.PLwRD-3). “Sorry, did not sound like a poem -- but maybe I am not up to date on how poems are now/can be. My words were taken fine. Very short comments - thought they could be elaborated more” (7.4.PPA.PLwRD-1); “It was more like a statement than a poem. It read a little bit like a poem, but much more like a book” (11.1.PPA.PLwRD-1); “To me with my understanding of what a poem is I did not find it to be a poem just a collection of words” (12.2.YOVaD.PLwRD-1); “I did not appreciate the poem. It seemed a little cumbersome and though I understand that these words were contributed by group members, I do not feel that the author expressed our deeper feelings” (11.10.PPA.PLwRD-2). |
Care- partners |
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“I really liked how it started out in the first line. FTD is indeed a journey. Then....beginning each stanza with the words "There is so much I could say..." Then, you HEAR this spoken from the perspective of each care partner. Each stanza stands on its own and is unique, which, to me, speaks to the disease itself. I very much treasure the final product and the creativity to bring individual parts into a whole” (8.4.FTD.C-2); “Beforehand was cynical about how a poem could be constructed from a collection of words submitted by various contributors. The final poem crystallises the various feelings, emotions and experiences of rare dementia carers” (5.8.PCA.BC-1);“Both my husband and myself really loved the finished poem and felt it expressed so clearly what it feels like to suffer from PCA. The title is excellent and the repetition of the first and last lines in each verse is particularly effective” (6.5.PCA.C-2); “Spoke volumes to me! It is amazing how different people's thoughts could come together to create such a symbolic poem of dementia” (10.2.YOAD.BC-1). “Reading the pain and hope of others makes me feel connected, and this disease typically causes such rifts of disconnection” (10.5.PPA.C-1);. Initially I felt overwhelming sadness and grief, while at the same time it's helpful to know you're not alone in experiencing the impact the condition can cause” (5.7.PCA.BC-2). “Our poem appears to be a first opportunity for some of Eleven (as I now think of us) to experience their feelings in this way. I do not want it to stop. I KNOW those feelings, I have them EVERY day.....somehow there is comfort in sharing the awfulness of it all” (9.11.FTD.C-1). I enjoyed reading the poem because it was a thoughtful compilation of our shared experience with PCA. Hearing the thoughts and feelings of others living this challenge was comforting, encouraging, and empowering” (13.5.PCA.C-1); “I found reading it made me feel extremely emotional, it created a very strong response, seeing my words on the page amongst those of other people who are sharing different stages of this condition” (5.7.PCA.BC-2); “The completed poem makes me feel oddly secure. Caregiving is often a very isolating experience. Tying our reflections all together tethers our boats together” (10.5.PPA.C-3). “The poem does not meet the brief for me. As a means to inform those ignorant of FTD and its awfulness, it fails to elicit enough disgust, nor raise compassion towards those who daily battle it. I do thank the poet, of course” (9.11.FTD.C-2). “It was good to hear the words of others and to compare them (similarities and differences) to your own thoughts. We had thought that the ideas and feelings would be synthesized into a more holistic 'statement' that provided insight into the emotional and personal challenges experienced by this 'group of people' as a whole…(the poem) seems to be incomplete and lacks the emotional and insightful impact you would hope for in a poem of this nature” (13.10.PCA.C-2). |
Lived Experience and Reflection | Hearing own experience in a different way Validating invisible distress Multi-voiced or group lived experience Poetry conveys emotion and meaning |
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Curiosity and Exploration | Creative aspect piquing interest Novel methodology and experience No wrong answers (gut response) |
Barriers and Inclusivity | Am I a poetry person ?Poetry as scary Reading all the poems was overwhelming |
Sharing the Poems | Value as activity vs. value as product Where and how to disseminate Risks and benefits of sharing the poems |
Participant Group | N | Poems |
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Group 1: Professionals Students |
14 16 |
Hear My Pain Tumble Jumble Support |
Group 2: Professionals Students |
20 13 |
Eleven There’s So Much I Could Say Still Me |
Group 3: Professionals Students |
21 9 |
Steep Learning When Will I Know Longer Be Me Accept This Honour |
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